The Tale of Desperation

I don't understand these people that ALWAYS have something to blog about. Maybe my life is just boring or else I am not as creative as those other people. I used to feel like I had a bit of a way with words and that maybe something I would say could encourage another person. Now I just feel like anything that I say has already been said by someone else - and said much better, at that.

This blog post isn't just to feel sorry for myself, so please don't comment in pity. I really just feel the need to get some stuff off my chest...to ponder life a bit. That's all, and writing probably is one of the best ways that I know of.

Working at Dr. Hakes' office (the eye doctor that I have been visiting since I was a child) has been such a pleasure for me. I had forgotten how deeply I enjoy that kind of work. Seeing numerous people every day and still having the time to care about each one is so enjoyable. Scheduling, taking medical history, answering phones, filing - because this is a small office I get to do more than I would in a larger place. Relationships are formed with my patients and with my co-workers. I learn new things and meet new people. I see how I want to be when I become elderly and I also see what to avoid in my life.

The current frustration in my life is weight loss. Because I am on medication that encourages weight gain, it is incredibly difficult to lose the weight. Is it possible to eat less and stay at the same weight? I have also been exercising 3-4 times per week along with the change in diet, but am not seeing any kind of real change on the scale. I just want to crawl in a hole. If I go off the med I will be miserable, but if I stay on the med I will probably continue to gain weight (or at least be unable to lose it). What is the solution?! The whole situation just makes me want to scream! I have contacted my doctor, but truthfully am not very hopeful for an answer to my problem.

God has faithfully provided several opportunites for work. Nothing has worked out exactly as I planned or thought it would, but I am being able to spend time with my family as well as do some odd jobs to earn a bit of money.

God has even provided a friend with whom I have been able to occasionally spend time! I did not expect this added blessing. Tomorrow we are going thrift-shopping. :) This has to be one of my favorite past-times. We now have three (at last count) thrift stores in town plus a nice little consignment shop. Pretty good for a small town, huh?

Sleep is beginning to call my name. I guess this note will be posted tomorrow because my internet access has ceased for the time being. Good night (or rather good morning), everyone!